I feel like lately I complain more than I talk about the good stuff going on.

today, I feel a balance of both.

coming off of such an amazing week/weekend with my family has been so healthy for me. I spent two different nights at home, very much enjoying both nights. Sometimes being in my childhood room is just what the doctor ordered. Seeing my whole family on Thanksgiving day was wonderful...as was the whole food. My mom and I cooked a traditional german meal on Saturday of Sauerbraten, speatzle, and cabbage. SO YUMMY!! It was great.

Last night I had a friend over. One who I thought I was really excited to see and hang out with. Turns out, the ties that had been somewhat severed, were severed for a reason. He kept telling me how beautiful I was, and how much he missed me. Thing was, he said that, and I had no emotion, and I actually couldn't wait for him to go home. Weird. a year ago, I never would have guessed that I wouldn't care much for this guy. A year ago he was one of my best friends. We started dating, and then didnt see each other for a good 8 months or so. I realize now, I didn't even miss him. I'm alright with it. Just strange.

Feelings are crazy. How some people I feel something for EVERY time I see them. And others, I don't think about much. People who have in theory had the same amount of impact...

Anyway, today I'm working on homework and getting very tired of looking up definitions. Only 20 to go! Yay!

I hate my life today.

Only because I have 2 papers to write, 2 books to finish reading, and one other book to read. All so I can write the two papers.

I really really want this semester to be over.

On a happier note, I figured out my schedule for next semester - which will be awesome.

Wednesday: 9:30-12 Exegesis: Resurrection Narratives
Thursday: 8:15-10:45 Pastoral Care: Sexuality, Gender Identity, and Orientation
Thursday: 5:00-7:30 History of Christianity I: Early and Mideval

And that is all folks. Beautiful I tell, absolutely beautiful.

Actually, that makes today happy. Ask me that again around 10pm though, and i'll be back to hating today.

So the truth is, i have more homework than I can deal with at the moment.

However...I don't have a choice but to do it all. If I can get to the other side of the mountain of a week, I will be heading to LOS ANGELES!!! I haven't been since I moved away, and I need the ocean! I need the Grove! I need my BEST FRIEND! A week from today I will be in LA, and I couldn't be more frickin excited!!!

i'm trying to convince myself that mind over matter works. however, I was home by 10:30 on a friday night out with the girls. Sucks I tell ya.

We did make crepes at Kayla's tonight. And, I am reminded again how much I love crepes with nutella and banana!! I ate them many many times a day in Paris, and tonight I had 3! they were very small crepes, so it wasn't quite as much as it sounds like. Fabulous either way.

This weekend is homecoming for TCU! Yay! Football game tomorrow, hopefully we finally win another game. We've not done so hot the last couple games. But, its against SMU, so...should be a breeze. If we lose, I won't give up on TCU, but uh, I may give up on the season. haha.

Ok, body is rebelling, sleep is inevitable!!

I'm tired.

More, I'm just tired of schoolwork already. I knew that I would be. I'm ready for fall break and for a week in L.A.

Reading this week is relatively light, which is nice because I'm tired of having almost 1000 pages of reading a week, its under 500 this week, which is WAY easier! So...yay!

I should start that reading now that I think about it. dang.

6 years. 6 years ago today I sat with Emily while she opened her birthday presents as we watched CNN cover the tragedy that was unfolding. Some birthday huh? I'm watching the coverage that they showed on the Today show that day this morning. How sad is it that as I watch I am criticizing how they did things because the CNN coverage is so engrained in my head, and this is different. Obviously, same event, but their reaction time to things seems slower. But, it still rocks me to the core. Watching the first tower fall a few minutes ago seriously took my breath away and caused my heart to skip a beat. Amazing, and shocking still six years later.

I shouldn't spend my day today watching this again, but I feel like its my way of remembering what happened. The day I don't care, or that they won't show coverage, means we are allowing ourselves to forget it the same way that we have "forgotten" Pearl Harbor. Of course we remember it, but this will forever be seared in my mind, and I don't mind watching it. It keeps me humble.

On a happier note. My best friend turns 26 today. How are we getting so old? Yesterday we played "remember when" for almost an hour. It seriously was one of the highlights of my day. In the past 9 years she has gone from a chance roommate on the IAS trip, to a RYMC member with me, to college roommate, to nsync buddy, confidant, person who makes me laugh non-stop, to travel buddy, the only person who I can have an entire walk down memory lane by saying ONE WORD. She's much more eloquant than I am, and I would love to do justice to her with my words, but I can't. I cannot imagine my life without her as my best friend, and I'm glad I don't have to. She's one in a million, and while I don't see her but a few times a year for a day or two anymore, she's my best friend. Happy Birthday Em, you're beautiful inside and out. I love you, and I'll see you in 20 days!!!

Papers do not like me. Wait....I do not like papers.

I went with Anne to Marble Slab tonight so that we could avoid studying for a bit. Now I'm in the process of cleaning my room so that I can again stall...

Remind me why I love school? I love being in class and learning about all this stuff. I HATE papers.

*Sigh*