In Class

So, I should be paying attention, but in order to look like I am taking notes, I'm going to update my blog instead. I'm all stealthy like that. Then again, I'm sitting in the back row just like everyone else with computers, and none of us are taking notes. But I digress.

I have lots on my mind right now.

I went today to talk with one of my professors about finding a job. It ended up being a very unfruitful meeting. Only because there really isn't anything open, which I already knew. However, it did start to freak me out because I really need money. I'm not doing youth ministry just to get money, but I'm also doing it because this is what I love to do. There is one church opening up in TBA, and one of my friends got a call from them asking him to come interview. So, he is going in to interview. But, he has decided that he would rather not work in a white church. I have asked him to pass on my information, and he said he would.

Also today I got an email from my NTA area minister, and he asked me whether I was looking for a youth minister job as well. So, I told him yes...I really would rather work in TBA, I like it better...but if I don't get the TBA job, I'll take an NTA job so I can get money and do what I love doing. I just don't want to have to drive to Dallas all the time, and in TBA most of the youth ministers all go to school with me, so its great. BUT, I also have to not do things for selfish reasons and really listen to where God is calling me.

I'm scared about the ordination process. It's going to be hard. It's always hard. I'm really scared about going to get a psych evaluation. What if they tell me I'm messed up and I can't be a minister?!? I don't know what I would do, seriously. March 21 at 10 am....keep your fingers crossed for me that I do well there. I have to do well at that meeting to even be able to meet with the regional ordination committee. SCARY!!!

OK...maybe I should try to pay attention for a bit...