Holiday Time

I absolutely love the 4th of July. I get to spend the afternoon with my extended family, and then spend the evening with my friends. What more can you want in life? An entire day dedicated to having fun with those closest to you! Granted, I had many many friends that I did not spend time with, or even talk to...but that does not mean I think less of them.

I'd been neglecting my friends from Brite recently. And not even to hang out with other friends, really...but because I have been spending a lot of time with my family. I wonder what that says about me? Seriously, I've seen my mom every day for the last 6 days, and I've been working and so had she! Granted, my dad is out of town so I have been helping keep her company, but still! I love it.

I made cinnamon rolls yesterday. Anne had never had them, and my sister was giving me a hard time because I haven't made them in forever. So, yesterday I made them! Made a mess of the kitchen too...I forgot how messy they can be. They turned out great though. Made me miss Em and Kristin though...I should remedy that.

I need to work on some of my friendships that I've let slip some recently. I've realized how hard it is to have so many different friends from different parts of my life. I have select friends from different parts of my life that I'm really sad I don't talk to much anymore. I know its a two way street, but I need to make some effort. So, I'm doing that starting now. Its so easy sometimes to get caught up with the new people you are hanging out with that you forget the old, but I'm going to try and be more evenly spaced between them all.

New job starts a week from Sunday. I'm excited/anxious/nervous all at the same time. Hopefully it works out wonderfully...guess only time will tell!

I don't know why, but I'm feeling a bit unsettled this week.

It probably has something to do with the fact that I'm coming off a two week camp high, which was absolutely amazing. Two weeks where I was literally around people 24/7, and had things planned out for me all day. I didn't have to think about what to eat, or trying to find someone to do something with, it was all there, ready for me. I loved that.

This week, Anne is out of town, so not only am I home from camp, but I'm home ALONE from camp. I've gone out the last two nights, and tonight...I'm staying in. Partially because I was out so late last night, but partially because none of my friends who are in town (which is very few), called me to hang out tonight even though I'd talked to them earlier in the day.

And its raining. Again.

However, I have a date tomorrow. I am very excited, and I hope that it turns out well...there's potential here people.

summertime and the livin is easy

Summer has been great so far, I suppose.

Hung out with friends, both new and old.

Watched movies

all my TV shows are ending, and that makes me very sad...well, ending til Sept. anyway.

Sky has been sick, so I actually got to work an extra day last week, the money was much needed.

I leave for Florida on Friday!!!! I'm super excited about spending time with the fam and attending a wedding. My dress is super cute, and I am very excited!!

Do you ever have those days where something just seems...off? Like, nothing particularly bad happens, but those tiny disappointments just kind of pile up? That is the story of my life today. Just...those little things that, after awhile, kind of bring you down. So here I sit...just kind of feeling, blah. Wishing that the biggest disappointment of the day (which didn't come as a surprise) had not happened, and that the original plan had come through. However, as is typical in my life, it just didn't work out that way.

Boys are dumb, and have a way of hurting me without meaning to. Perhaps I am too sensitive. Perhaps I dont say/show my emotions enough. Perhaps I need to "grow up and deal with it". Perhaps...I am completely normal and sometimes things just suck.

Good thing this feeling doesnt last long, I'll be better tomorrow at least.

SUMMER

*sings* schoooooools out for summer!

YAY! I survived my first year at seminary. Unfortunately my grades were not all that I hoped for this semester, but, a 3.25 isn't THAT bad I guess. I'll just have to deal with it one way or another.

I go to Florida in 2 weeks! YAY!!! I can't wait. It will be a blast!

That is all for now. More excitement later perhaps.

This week has been dreadful, and its only Tuesday.

I had a 10 page paper due today and an in class final in my class from Hell. Both actually went OK I think. Not sure about either, but I don't feel too badly.

I have one more paper that I will write tomorrow night, and have to turn in by 1pm on Thursday. I'd love to have it done tomorrow night and get it turned in early, just so that I don't have to think about it.

It's weird though, I already feel like something is missing. I love the idea of summer. A time with no class...but it makes me feel worthless sometimes. Granted, I have a job 3 days a week watching Skylar, but that doesn't do much for the wallet. I need another job, but have no desire to work retail. I'm thinking about seeing if Paulette will let me work 2 days a week this summer just so that I have extra money until I start my job in July at the church. But, not positive I want to subject myself to that, so we'll see. UGH. I need a job, have I ever mentioned that.

Let me give you a little insight into the craziness that has been my life over the last week.

Storms, tornados, flash flooding...that was knee high outside, and 2 inches of water filled the bottom floor of my building. Power was out for 6 or so hours. Sweeping water out with a broom in the dark. Moving out of my old apartment for 8 hours straight. Still have stuff over there. Trying to set up the new duplex...which is amazing!! I love it!

Overall..I am all kinds of exhausted. I can barely stay awake. My friend CanDance is in from Ohio and I totally want to see her, but its a 45 min drive to where she is...and I'm not positive I can stay awake driving that long, much less stay awake to get BACK here afterwards. I'll hang out with her tomorrow...I just feel bad b/c I've been looking forward to seeing her.

I finished my exegesis at like 3pm, and it wasn't due til 5 on Friday. That was awesome. I have 2 more papers and one in class final left to work on before I'm done with my first year of seminary...that's SO crazy. Amazing how fast time flies, and how different my life is now than a year ago. But the people I've gotten close to in the last year...are the best people ever. And that includes all those kids I was hanging out with at this time last year. This summer I plan to spend a lot of time with them again! yay!!